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Girl Scout Thin Mint Brownies From the kitchen of Vickie Fisher

Girl Scout Thin Mint Brownies

Pre-heat oven 350

Ingredients

½ sleeve of thin mints crushed

1 cup of butter (melted and slightly cooled)              2/3 cup of cocoa powder

2 cups of sugar                                                            1 cup of flour

4 eggs (slightly beaten)                                               ½ tsp salt

1 1/2 tsp (1 1/2 cap full) vanilla extract                      ½ tsp baking powder

½ tsp (1/2 cap full) peppermint extract

Directions

  1. Preheat the oven to 350.
  2. Grease a 9×13 baking dish. (I use the butter wrappers to do this, I hate butter on my fingers) or you can use parchment paper.
  3. Take half a sleeve of Girl Scout Thin Mint cookies, put them into the food processor, and pulse until they are either fine powder or chunky, depending on what you like. You can even put them in a Ziploc bag and smash them up, with a rolling pin, or a heavy pan, (this is more fun and one less thing to wash)
  4. Melt butter in a medium-sized bowl, in the microwave, starting at 40 seconds and going down to 30 then 20 seconds, until melted. Let cool for about 5 minutes.
  5. To the butter add the sugar, vanilla, peppermint extract, and eggs. Mix until combines. This is so easy just use a spoon, no point in pulling out the electric mixers.
  6. You can add the flour, salt, baking powder, and cocoa powder, all at once to the butter mix, or you can do as I do and sift it in. (I like this step but then I am a Grandma). Gently mix the dry ingredients until combined, once again use the spoon.
  7. Fold in as much of the cookie crumbs, as you want.
  8. Evenly spread in your greased baking dish. 
  9. Now the hard part, putting them in the oven and waiting 25-30 minutes for those yummy brownies to be done. After 25 minutes check to see if a toothpick comes out clean. If not lick the toothpick and wait another 5 minutes. Get a new toothpick and check again. If you like them fudgy you will want a little on the toothpick just not a lot if you like them cakey, check them at 27 minutes.
  10. Cool until you can cut them cleanly with a knife and enjoy.

Note: Because the Thin Mints are covered in chocolate this adds an extra layer of gooey, but when they are cooled the chocolate hardens making the brownies firm, like cookies. If you are like me and like soft brownies put the brownies in the microwave for 5 to 10 seconds and they are just as good as new.

Hope you enjoy these delicious Girl Scout Thin Mint Brownies.

Where can you get Girl Scout Cookies

https://www.gsdigitalcookie.com/cookie/Landing/1/c802eba7-9ed0-4569-a4f0-1485f87d1211/en-US

A Gift’s from the Land: Dandelions and Violets

https://youtu.be/2P2KDjpE4zY

Gifts from the land to me are wonderful little treasures that just appear with no effort on my part. I don’t have to plant them, water or work the land to make them grow. All I have to do is recognize them as God gift’s and enjoy them. I realize that most people view dandelions and violets as weeds and can’t wait to get rid of them. But to me, they are little rays of sunshine scattered throughout my yard. And I have come to view them as God’s way of brightening my day.

Did you know that it is believed that the pilgrim bought dandelions with them on the Mayflower? Why, would they do that if they were just a weed? Because there is more to that little yellow button of a flower than you think.

As a child, I would pick them and proudly bring them to my mother. As an adult, I see them not only for their beauty but as nourishment to both my body and soul. Did you know you could eat the flowers and leaves from both plants? That they are high in vitamins and have many health benefits. You will be amazed at how much these two unwanted plants have to offer. I hope that you too will quickly put them on your must-have herb list.

Wild Violet leaves and flowers are edible. The leaves are very tasty and you can cook them like any other leafy green or add them raw to your salad along with the flowers. The beginning of the season is the best time to eat them.

Benefits of Wild Violets

  • Anti-inflammatory
  • Expectorant
  • Helps bronchitis and Asthma
  • Dry and Whooping coughs
  • Lowering Cholesterol
  • High in vitamins A, C & rutin
  • Good for the heart
  • Rids the body of toxins
  • Stomach issues
  • Insomnia
  • And much more

All parts of the dandelion are edible including the roots.

Benefits of Dandelions

  • Anti-inflammatory
  • Detoxes the body
  • mild antiviral
  • Stomach issues
  • High in vitamins A, B, C , D & K
  • High in iron, and potassium
  • Full of antioxidant
  • Helps stabilize blood sugar
  • Lowering Cholesterol & triglyceride
  • Good for the heart and liver
  • Boost the immune system
  • Reduces water weight
  • And much more

As with all herbs ask your doctor if dandelion or violet will affect any of the medicine you may be taking. If you are allergic to ragweed, or iodine, you should avoid dandelion.

Tea

sweet Violet Tea: Use 1-2 teaspoons of fresh flowers, (about a palm full)  to 1 cup of boiling water. Infuse for 10 minutes then strain. If you have hard water like I do the violets will not turn the water blue, I had to use bottled water for the pretty blue. If you squeeze lemon into the tea it will turn light pink. Add sugar or honey to your liking.

Dandelion tea 4-5 dandelion flowers, you can put it in a strainer if you like, I just add it directly into a cup of boiling water. Let steep for 10 minutes. It will have a faint yellow color. Spoon out the dandelion, add sugar or honey, and enjoy.

Violet Simple Syrup

About 1 cup of violets flowers only

1 jar

Enough water to cover the flowers

1 cup of sugar

Day one:

Pick the violets, from a safe place. Somewhere you know has not been sprayed. Rinse them off to remove any bugs before placing them in a mason jar. Cover the flowers with water, put the lid on and let sit for 24 hours.

Day two:

Strain the violet water into a saucepan or a measuring cup, using a fine strainer. Squeeze any excess water from the flowers. You should have a cup of water. If not you can add a little water, if more than a cup just add the same amount of sugar.  Add sugar to the violet water. Heat over low heat until the sugar is dissolved. Watch and stir you don’t want the mess of boiled sugar water to clean up. Store in a mason jar for up to 6 months in the refrigerator. You can use this like any simple syrup in teas, drinks, or recipes, just enjoy.  

Dandelion Simple Syrup

About 1 cup of dandelion flowers only

1 jar

Enough water to cover the flowers

1 cup of sugar

Day one:

Pick the dandelion, from a safe place. Somewhere you know has not been sprayed. Rinse them off to remove any bugs before placing them in a mason jar. Cover the flowers with water, put the lid on and let sit for 24 hours in a cool dark place.

Day two:

Strain the dandelion water into a saucepan or a measuring cup, using a fine strainer. Squeeze any excess water from the flowers. You should have a cup of water. If not you can add a little water, if more than a cup just add the same amount of sugar.  Add sugar to the dandelion water and bring to a boil over medium heat stir until the sugar is dissolved. Watch and stir you don’t want the mess of boil sugar water to clean up. Store in manson jar for up to 1 months in the refrigerator.

You can use this like any simple syrup in teas, drinks, recipes, just enjoy.  

Wildberry Cake From the Kitchen of Vickie Fisher

Thank you for joining me on my berry-picking adventure, as promised in my YouTube video below is the recipe for my wildberry cake. Not only is this cake delicious it is easy to make. Since berries are only in season for a short time, I make a couple of these, some to eat right away, it’s too yummy not too, but some I freeze. I Love serving homemade cake at Thanksgiving. If you are unable to find black and red raspberries, try this same recipe with blueberries only up the berries to 3 cups. I hope you enjoy this cake.

Wildberry cake

Wildberry Cake

375-degree oven

1 ½ cup of sugar                                              1 cup of oil

1 teaspoon salt                                                 3 eggs (room temperature)

1 teaspoon baking soda 1 teaspoon vanilla

1-teaspoon cinnamon

2 cups of flour

2 cups of wildberries (if frozen thaw and drain)

  1. Preheat the oven to 375. Grease a tube pan or if you prefer a square or loaf pan. Instead of coating the pan with flour which is the usual way of doing it instead, sprinkle cinnamon sugar to coat the pan. It works and adds extra flavor. (4 teaspoons of sugar, 1 teaspoon of cinnamon, blend well and sprinkle away). I also sometimes use confectioner sugar. Amazingly it works too with no flour residue on the cake.
  2. In a large bowl mix all dry ingredients with a whisk or fork just to combine. Add the rest of the ingredients except for the berries, and mix until combined. The batter will be thick, don’t worry it’s supposed to be like that.
  3. Gently add the berries.
  4. Pour into pan and bake for 40-45 minutes at 375 degrees.
  5. Let cool for 5-10 minutes flip onto a plate and let it continue to cool.
  6. You can eat this warm, or wait until it is completely cool. Sprinkle cake with powdered sugar or eat as is. Either way is delicious. Enjoy.

Create-My Word of the Year



I have never been good at keeping New Year’s resolutions. So, last year I
decided to try something different, the word of the year. In case this is new
to you, the idea is to pick a word as your theme for the year. You pick a word
put it in a place you are sure to see it daily and embrace the action of the
word for the year. Honestly, I don’t know if that worked out for me or not,
because I have no idea what last year’s word was. Obviously, I didn’t put it in
a visible place. But here I am in 2021 picking a new word.

This year’s word is a simple little word, “do”. How hard could it be to
keep? I just have to do this, do that, just do it, and no matter what I would
have at least used my word somehow every day. Even if it was just to “do”
nothing. I was quite proud of my selection. For my first act of doing, I
decided it was finally time to hang a picture my son Luke, had created for me
over five years ago. It is six tiles that spell out create with pictures. I
have always loved it and kept it tucked safely away until I could find the
perfect spot for it. This year I was going to “do” it. Hang it on the wall, and
be inspired.

So I unwrapped it from its cocoon of plastic and went in search of the
perfect spot. It had to be somewhere not only I would see it but anyone coming
to visit would be motivated by it too. It also had to be placed someplace I
would be able to see it from multiply rooms. After all, there are more days
than I would care to admit, I “do” need that nudge to create. Wow, look how
many times I have used “do” already. This is an awesome word.

The only problem I went and changed it. Why would I “do” that? Well carrying
Create around looking for the perfect spot, it started to crawl into my head.
Then I saw on Facebook a word search puzzle where the first four words you saw
were your mantra for the year. The first word that shot out at me was Creation.
Do you start to see a pattern here? Three other times the word create jumped
out at me in some form or another. So, of course, I had no choice but to change
my word of the year.

I like the word “create”. Obviously as a writer I better love the word, but
for me, it doesn’t just mean to “create” an imaginary world, but it’s something
more meaningful. I believe that with every action I “create” something reacts
within my world. My goal this year is to “create” inspiring words for you to
read, and more importantly to “create” a world around me that God would be
proud of. Just think about that for a moment. God created this beautiful world,
wouldn’t it be wonderful to hand him a gift back.

How can we do that? Simple. Smiling at someone creates a return smile.
Giving someone a hug creates a feeling of belonging. Listening to the other
person’s side creates a better understanding. It doesn’t take much to create a
world budding with flowers of joy. Kindness and love can be created by each and
every one of us, with little or no effort.

For me, my goal is to “create” calm where there is none. To “create” a happy
and healthy environment. To “create” a garden of beauty and nourishment. To
“create” new friendships. To “create” kindness. To “create” acceptance and
understanding. Just writing this creates in me a warm happy feeling. If you
happen to see me twirling with my arms in the air, I’m just creating a funnel
of happiness coming your way.

Will I change the world, this year?  I don’t know, but I know I can not
fail. Because one act of kindness will create another act. And like a snowball
rolling out of control, kindness will keep growing.

 

Reflections of 2020

As I look to embrace 2021, I can’t help but reflect back on 2020. For so many, this has been a horrible year, and my heart goes out to each and everyone of you who have lost someone, their job, or are struggling in anyway. I truly feel your pain and lift you in prayer. I wish I could wrap you in a hug and tell you someone cares. Because I do.

For me, words could never express my gratitude for how blessed I have been. I can only thank God that this year’s drama has barely touched me and my family. There have been hardships, but nothing we couldn’t face.

I have missed hugging my family, even for a non-hugger like me that has been hard. I know when this is over I am hugging each of them the way my mother hugged. So, be warned an overwhelming hug is coming.

Missing Easter, birthday dinners, and everyone together for Thanksgiving and Christmas has been sad, but missing someone for a few get-togethers is better than a lifetime, of missing them. Other than my heart aching over the loss of a dear friend, covid has barely touched my circle, a few scares but we have made it safely into the New Year. I pray for my family and those reading this that God continues to keep His wall of protection around us.

I’m 65 and relatively healthy, but the threat of covid knocking on the door is real. The weak lungs I inherited from my mother’s side of the gene pool, upped the risk factor, so I have pretty much stayed home. I can count on one hand the times I have entered a store since March.  Which means I am home ninety-eight percent of the time staring at all the clutter I have collected over the years. So, I have started slowly but surely to rid my house of it. I assure you, this will take more than a stay-at-home order from the Governor to get this feat done. I know that somewhere up in the attic is my megaphone from when I was a cheerleader, along with every book I have owned since birth. Well, maybe not from birth but elementary school. Can you believe that my grandkids had no interest in reading the Bobbsey Twins? I am not a hoarder, she protests a little too loudly. Every item leaving this house either as trash, or recycling is a win. Don’t worry the books are staying, maybe my great-grandkids will want them. But maybe the 8-track tapes will go. Today January 1, I pick up where I left off when I started baking for Christmas. Sorry kids, cookies trump purging any day.

I have made enough cookies to feed an army, that’s what happens when you try to find the perfect recipes. Who knew that my mother’s oatmeal raisins are still the best? Which brings me to another plus this year, I have renewed my admiration for my mother. Anyone that can make cut-out cookies with 13 grandkids needs a medal of honor. I assure you there were no cut-out cookies coming from my oven. Maybe another time. I did get to enjoy baking with my daughter and both granddaughters, at different times. My oldest granddaughter Lillian and I made our first pumpkin roll and Tres leches cake. They were amazing. Then my daughter Sarah and granddaughter Willow came before Christmas to made cookies. We only made five different kinds that evening. I was worn out, and once again wondered how my mother did it.

I also had the joy of having a tea party with both of my granddaughters during the summer. I do need to find a fun safe activity to do with my grandson. I have missed spending time with Jack.

This past year, I have been able to work from home, giving me an extra four hours a day, and let’s not even count the money I have saved in gas. I have published another book, read 77 others. And the icing on the year was on December 31, I won 1st place in Xulon-The Christian Author Awards, Christian Fiction category. Talk about ending the year on a high note.

This year more than ever I am looking forward to a bright new future. One free of deadly viruses, and stay-at-home orders. One where I once again can embrace my family. If 2020 has taught me anything it is the value of each moment shared with those I care about. We have weathered the storm of 2020, become stronger and hopefully wiser in our journey. As we say good-bye to 2020, let’s not dwell on the obstacles we faced, but on the knowledge that we made it, no matter how tough it might have been.

As we stand on the crest of 2021 I hope for each of you a year full of love, acceptance, forgiveness, and good health. May you reach the pinnacle of 2021 with a smile on your face and the joy of sharing kindness with those around you.  May God keep you in his loving arms every step of the way. Happy first day of an awesome New Year.

Tulips of Love Chapter 1

Chapter 1

The veil between dreams and reality began to lift. Jeff sank farther beneath the down comforter. He reached across the bed for his wife, but came up with a handful of air. He sighed. No cuddling this morning.

The aroma of brewing coffee drifted up the stairs. He stretched then rolled out of bed. Through the window, he could see the sun just peeking over the horizon, casting its ray of light on the hill behind the house. Jeff smiled. The tulips were in full bloom. Which meant today was Tulip of Love Day.

Michelle believed tulips were God’s first visible sign of love. He agreed. This had been an extra-long winter and the flowers were a welcome relief. He pulled on a pair of jeans and a flannel shirt.

At the top of the stairs he glanced into Jack’s room. His son was still sleeping soundly. Jeff whispered to the dog to come. Shadow lifted his head before putting it back down. “I see how it is.” It was amazing how loyal that dog was to Jack. He would not move until the child was up.

Jeff hurried down the stairs. Once the kids realized what today was, there would be no more quiet time.

Entering the dark empty kitchen, he flipped on the light. Michelle was standing with her head leaning against the French doors in the family room. She flinched and squeezed her eyes shut.

He quickly turned the switch back off, then slipped up behind her and kissed her neck. “Sorry about the light. Another headache?”

She barely nodded. “The cold glass feels good against my head.” She moved, letting the lace curtains fall back into place. Her attempt at a smile was more of a grimace. She added, “The tulips are blooming.”

“Woohoo,” their daughter Beth shouted as the nine year old ran to their side. “Can I see?”

“You know the rules,” Jeff said. “No peeking until we are all here.”

Running out of the room, Beth yelled, “Jack, it’s Tulip of Love Day.” They could hear her as she dashed up the stairs and into her brother’s room.

“You would think it was Christmas or something the way you people act about those silly tulips,” Jeff said.

“Silly tulips, hmph.” Michelle put the bacon in the oven, slowly turning her head to look over her shoulder at him. “You can’t fool me. I know you’re looking forward to it as much as we are.” She handed him a mug of coffee. “Besides baseball practice with Jack, do we have any other plans for the day?”

He followed her into the kitchen. “You know I can cook breakfast if you want to go lie down until the headache goes away.”

“Thanks, but it’s really not too bad. Just a little one.”

“I don’t know… you look pale. I bet sometimes even the virtuous woman had help.”

Michelle smirked. “You can help by keeping the kids quiet.” She stirred the pancake mix. “Anyway I don’t think you can make tulip pancakes, can you?”

“Maybe not as pretty as yours.” He winked. “But they would be something to talk about for years to come.”

The kids burst into the kitchen, followed by their Siberian husky Shadow. “Can we go outside now?” they asked.

“Inside voices,” Jeff said, raising a finger to his lips.

Beth lowered her voice to almost a whisper and repeated, “Can we?”

Michelle took a sip of hot tea. “It’s chilly this morning. Go get your jackets.”

“This year there will be more tulips than ever,” Beth said. “I can’t wait to see the pink ones I planted.”

“And I planted orange ones for the Orioles, right Dad?”

“You sure did.”

Michelle stood with her hands on the French doors. “Are we ready?”

“Yes!” shouted Beth and Jack.

With a flourish Michelle flung open the doors. “It’s Tulip of Love Day.”

The kids ran out, stopping in awe at the sight of the hill half covered in tulips of every color. Shadow barked and raced past them. Michelle stood for a moment, admiring the breathtaking view.

“Wow, we’ve had a lot of blessings, haven’t we, Mom?”

“We sure have.” Michelle stooped down to hug her children to her. “It has been a long winter, and God is showing us His love with the beauty of the tulips.” She gave them a gentle push. “Now go pick one of your favorites so we can put them on the table as a reminder… not only of our blessings this year, but of God’s wonderful love.”

Beth ran straight to a pink one and Jack to an orange one.

Jeff put his arm around his wife. “Do I need to ask what color you want?”

“You know I’m going for a red one.” She nudged him and asked, “What about you?”

“Red, of course.”

They held hands as they climbed the flagstone path. Halfway up, the path veered off, only to rejoin, forming a heart filled with red tulips. Leaning in, he picked the one in the center. “This was the tulip that started it all. What a wonderful blessing this flower has brought us.” He pulled her to him. “I love you,” he whispered as he joined his lips to hers.

“Oh no, they’re kissing,” Jack said, covering his eyes.

Beth ran behind them and wrapped her arms as wide as she could around their waists.

Jeff reached down and swooped her up with one arm. He kissed her cheek, then his wife’s. “My two favorite girls,” he said and hugged them tight.

Beth giggled, “I love Tulip of Love Day.”

Jeff winked at Michelle before releasing his arm from around her. He grabbed hold of Beth’s waist and tossed her in the air. “So do I, buttercup.” Laughing he put her down and reached for Jack, tossing him into the air next. When Jack was back on the ground, Jeff grabbed Michelle by the hands.

She started to pull away. “You are not going to toss me!”

He laughed, “No,” then pulled her close and started two-stepping around the flagstone path.

Beth skipped behind them while Jack ran ahead. Shadow yelped and ran from one to the other. But when they headed into the downward part of the path, Jeff felt Michelle stumble. He scooped her into his arms without a second thought and continued dancing up and down the hill with the kids and Shadow parading behind.

“You can put me down now,” Michelle said.

He whispered, “Is this bothering your headache?”

“No.”

“Then I’m not putting you down. Any chance I get to hold you in my arms is one I’m not giving up.”

She kissed his cheek. “I love you so much.”

He grinned at the kids. “Want to hear the tulip story?”

They both clapped, jumping up and down. “Yes.”

“Once upon a time there was a handsome prince who wanted to buy the only red tulip at the store.”

Michelle giggled, “Handsome prince, huh?” He put her feet on the ground but didn’t let go of her.

“That is what the beautiful princess said.” Jeff winked at her.

Beth started to giggle. “I love this story.”

Jeff continued, “Just as his hand touched the potted tulip, another hand landed on it. Now the prince could tell by the dainty fingers with red nail polish, he would have no trouble taking the tulip as his own. Until he lifted his gaze and looked into the most beautiful blue eyes he had ever seen. Then he knew he would willingly give not only the coveted tulip to her… but the world, if he could.”

Michelle whispered in his ear, “You are so silly.”

“Now he wasn’t going to just give the beautiful princess the flower, for fear if he let go of the pot, she would disappear and he would never find her again. So he quickly said, ‘I will buy you the tulip, but only if you go for coffee with me’.” He nodded toward his daughter.

Beth, imitating her mother, said, “I don’t drink coffee.”

Jeff nodded at Jack next and the little boy said, “Well, the place has other things to drink besides coffee.”

Beth pushed her brother. “He didn’t say that.”

Jack put his hands on his hips. “Well, he should have. She was just being difficult.”

Michelle and Jeff tried not to laugh.

“She was not,” Beth argued. “She was being careful. She didn’t know him.”

“Okay, let me finish the story,” Jeff interrupted. “The difficult princess—” Michelle busted out laughing. Jeff rolled his eyes at her and continued. “The princess said, ‘I don’t drink coffee.’ And the prince, being full of patience said, ‘You can order whatever you would like.’ Suddenly she smiled at the prince and from that moment on he has never been the same. Six months later they were married, and they planted the bulb of their first tulip. When it bloomed the next year it looked so lonely on this big hill. That is when the princess came up with the brilliant idea to plant a tulip for each of their blessings.” He spread his arms out. “Ten years later we have a garden of love.”

“That is the best story ever,” Beth said, hugging both of her parents.

“Isn’t it amazing how God can take something as simple as a flower and turn it into a lifetime of love?” Michelle kissed her children before reaching up and kissing Jeff. “My handsome prince,” she said with a grin. “So tell us your blessings.”

Jack pointed. “That orange one is ’cause the Orioles made the playoffs last year.”

“I planted the pink ones because I made honor roll,” Beth said.

Michelle pointed at a variegated pink and yellow tulip. “I planted that one because I have been blessed with the two greatest kids on the planet.”

Jeff pointed to the red tulips. “Your mother and I planted these two for another year together.” He pointed to the center of the heart. “Look at all those red tulips. I bet there are at least forty… and yet we have only planted nineteen of them. One the first year, and two for each of the years we have been married.” He bent down, picked three red tulips, and handed one to Michelle. “When I married you, I never thought I could love you more. I was wrong. My love for you has multiplied beyond words…” He gave a tulip each to Beth and Jack. “…and has given us the wonderful gift of you two. We plant these flowers as a reminder of our blessings every year. I find it amazing that as our love multiplies, so do the tulips. It won’t be long before this heart is overflowing, like my heart is with love for the three of you.”

Beth and Jack flung their arms around their parents, almost knocking them down. Jeff’s arms went around his family. He gently collapsed with them to the ground, making sure he landed on the top of the pile, and started tickling them. The children’s laughter was music to his ears.

Somehow, Michelle inched away and suddenly she was on top tickling him. “Come on, kids. Let’s get him.”

“I give,” Jeff said between the laughing. He stood, pulling the kids up with him. He then held out a hand to Michelle, helping her stand.

She brushed the dirt from her pants and said, “I’m hungry, how about you?”

“Are we having tulip pancakes?” Jack asked.

“Of course,” Michelle answered ruffling his hair. “Why don’t you each pick me one more flower so we can have tulip tea?”

Jeff made a face.

Michelle laughed. “Don’t worry. You can have coffee.”

Phew,” he whispered in her ear. “I don’t like tulip tea.”

“I know.”

Jeff bent down to pick some of the red tulips for the table.

Back inside, Michelle said, “My handsome prince, would you get the vase from the top shelf in the pantry? Jack and Beth, go wash your hands so you can help me.”

“Mommy, can I get the tulip teapot and cups?” Michelle looked at her daughter. “I’m nine. Not a little girl anymore,” Beth said. “I know to be very careful.”

“Yes. And how about you make the tea?”

Beth clasped her hands together. “Thank you, thank you.” She ran to the china cabinet, and with care she picked up the red tulip teapot, then carried it to the kitchen island before going back for the cups.

Jeff noticed Michelle couldn’t keep from smiling as she watched Beth softly place each tulip cup on its saucer at each of their place settings on the table. Her hand lingered a moment on the handles. With a big grin she said, “Time to make the tea.” Beth hurried around the island. Picking up the tulips she asked, “What do I do first?”

“You wash them.”

“Yes, please do,” Jack said. “I don’t want bird poo in my tea.”

“Oh, Jack.” Beth rolled her eyes at him.

“After you gently wash them, pat them dry, then bring them over here.” Together Michelle and Beth pulled the petals off the flowers, and put them into the teapot. Michelle picked up the whistling kettle, now filled with hot water. Jeff could see her hand shaking and made a move to help.

Putting the pot back down, she immediately said, “Beth, would you like to pour the water into the tulip teapot this year?”

Beth grinned, then slowly poured the hot water over the tulip petals and put the lid on top.

“Great job.” Michelle rubbed her daughter’s back. “By the time the pancakes are finished, the tea will be, too. Would you run and get our blessings book from the desk so we can read it and remember why we planted the tulips?” She turned back to the stove, carefully pouring each pancake into the shape of a tulip.

Jeff watched closely. Her hands were no longer trembling. “It’s amazing how you can do that.”

“Years of practice.” She grinned. “Remember how they looked that first year?”

Jeff winked. “Oh, were those supposed to have been tulips?” He chuckled when she swatted him. “They were very lovely.”

Hmm.” She handed him the plate of bacon and said, “You can set this on the table.” Then she followed him with the pancakes.

After they said grace, Michelle started to pour the tea. Jack put his small hand over his cup. “I don’t like tulip tea.”

“You have to drink it, Jack,” Beth added. “It’s tradition.”

“Daddy doesn’t drink it,” Jack argued. “So I don’t have to either.” He pulled his shoulders back. “We men don’t drink sissy drinks.”

Jeff saw the disappointment flash in his wife’s eyes and held out his cup to her. “Of course I’m going to drink the tea.” Her radiant smile was all the reward he needed, but he was glad when she only filled his cup halfway. “It is tradition… and with lots of honey, I’m sure it will be delicious.”

Michelle kissed his cheek and whispered, “You are the best.”

He winked and said, “I know,” and held out Jack’s cup to be filled.

“But—”

“Men do what needs to be done to make the women we love happy.” Jeff poured lots of honey into Jack’s tea and stirred. When everyone had their cups in hand, Jeff picked up his own, making a toast with Jack. “Sometimes we have to take one for the team.” Jeff took a sip of his tea, trying to keep his face straight. “Umm, yummy.”

“Yuck,” Jack said.

Michelle and Beth drank from their cups as if it was the most delicious tea ever. Over tulip pancakes and bacon, they talked about all the blessings they’d had that year.

 

Hello God, Can You Hear Me?

 

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Introduction to Hello God, Can You Hear Me?

With billons of voices calling out to God, how is it conceivable He can hear me? I don’t know how, but I know He does.

When I was twenty-eight-years old, I was involved in a car accident. The woman who hit me was in a hurry to get her brakes fixed. As she sped down the windy country road, she couldn’t see that around the curve there were three stopped cars. She plowed into me with such force the backseat slammed into my back. I was in the car alone, and yet I felt a hand on my chest preventing me from flying through the windshield (this was before seatbelts were required). For the next five years I was unable to work. Pain became my closest friend.

At the time, I was a single mom. Suddenly, I was not only unable to work, but also in unimaginable pain. Belonging to a good church is truly a blessing from God. The women of Reisterstown Bible Church cleaned my house, did our laundry, and fixed our dinner. The men picked my son up for church and took him on outings so he wasn’t stranded with me.

The accident happened in October. November was a hard month, but the bills were paid. Then comes December. There was no money for bills or food, much less Christmas presents. A month before the accident, I had a Christmas Around the World party and sold so much I was able to get everyone on my Christmas list a present, including a bike for my son, for free. My sister, Sharon, and brother-in-law showed up with a Christmas tree. I was short one hundred dollars for rent. A Christmas card arrived from a friend’s father with one hundred dollars in it. God was truly taking care of everything.

Of all the amazing things that happened during that time, there is one miracle that stands out more than anything else. I was out of bread and milk and had no way of getting it. I was trying to figure out what I would give Ben for breakfast or put in his lunch for school, when someone knocked on the door. My friend Marge Streicker stood there with bread and milk. She actually apologized for not being able to do more. Until the day I die, I will always see her as the angel who bought me bread and milk. Her simple act of kindness showed me that God really does hear my voice in the billions of voices crying out for Him.

 

Holes in the Heart

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Like storm clouds rolling in the loss of a loved one whether through death or simply someone walking away, leaves us feeling like there is a hole in our heart.  It is so easy to allow the dark clouds to take control, but once that happens, fighting your way out of the darkness begins to feels like an impossible journey.

The first time I felt the toil of death I was six years old. The sense of sadness I felt when my Mother told me my Great-Grandfather died is something I remember to this day. I knew I was never going to see Big Papa ever again. I’ll never forget when I would run by him on the porch and he would grab me with his cane pulling me in for a big hug. Little did I realize at the time with each hug he was planting tiny seeds of joy in my heart. It’s been over fifty years and still thoughts of him fills me with love.

The second hole in my heart came when I was eighteen, my cousin, who was also eighteen, died. I can still hear my screams as I sunk to the floor sobbing my heart out.  Allen and I were part of the infamous six, the six oldest cousins, whose adventures are still talked about by the younger cousins today.  One of my fondest memories was when he was visiting for a week.  Now Allen was a city boy, and we were the country cousins.  One night my youngest brother and I had gone to the animal auction, with my fiancée.  We came home with a calf, a pig and some rabbits, which by the way, we put at Allen’s feet in the living room, you should have seen the look on his face.  When my fiancée started back out the door Allen jumped up dodging animals he ran to the door half laughing half afraid of the answer, “what’s next a horse?”  “No,” we said, “eggs.” We laughed so hard tears ran down our faces.

Through the years there have been many holes left in my heart some by death but some just from goodbyes.   When my first husband left our son and I, it was devastating, so much so that for the next four years I was in a very dark place.  I was so angry with God that I wanted nothing to do with Him.  My saving grace was my son Ben who, from the moment of his birth, has bought joy to my life.  I would do it all again just to have my son.

My dear Aunt Kitty, oh how I loved her.  She would come to visit, and it didn’t matter how many kids were spending the night she always let us crawl in bed with her and cuddle.  Even with more than ten kids in the bed she never complained.  She had plenty of love to go around.  And boy could she tell a story.  It didn’t matter how many times she told the same story each time was just as funny as the first time.  I miss her dearly.

Fifteen years ago, my husband kissed me goodbye, said I love you, went to work like he did everyday only this time he didn’t came back.  A massive heart attack claimed him in an instant.  His death sent me wheeling back into a dark place.  Once again, God had blessed with me my saving graces, Sarah and Luke, my shining stars, oh how blessed I am.  When I think of him, I just look at my two wonderful children and thank him for the love he gave me.  When I married Jerry, Ben was ten, he took Ben as his own, giving him the love of a father, and never treated him any different than he did his own flesh and blood.  Family was so important to him.  He honestly thought we were the Cleavers, living the perfect life.  The hole his death left in my heart felt like a crater.

My dear beloved Dad, I miss him so much.  In all my life I have never met a more compassionate loving man as my Dad.  When he said he loved you he meant it for life, no matter what you did to him he loved you unconditionally.  After almost thirty years of marriage, my parents divorced.  My mother remarried, my Dad never did, he loved her to his last breath.  When my stepfather got sick, my father took him and my mother to all their doctor’s appointments.  He would put my stepfather in a wheelchair and wheel him all over the VA hospital, because it was too much for my mother. He was the man who would give you the shirt off his back or his last piece of bread; he figured you needed it more than he did.   No matter what was going on he was always there for us, I would call him crying about something and his words of wisdom were “Everything will be OK.”  It always was.  He always carried mint lifesavers with him, because he said they cured anything that ailed you. If I love half the way my Dad did, then those in my life are truly blessed.  He never thought material things were important, family and friends were his treasures.  His legacy of love is beyond priceless.

I was blessed to have two wonderful stepfathers, Chris and Dewey.  My mother found not one but two men who had no children of their own, but willingly and lovingly accepted my mother’s family with open arms.  Now that is no small feat; my parents had five children, thirteen grandchildren and twelve great-grandkids.  To know both men were to love them, I miss them both.

May 2, death took my cousin Eddie, he was one of the infamous six.  Eddie always had a smile on his face even in the face of cancer.  Even though I rarely saw him once we grew up, when I did see him the bond we shared was still there.  I will miss him dearly.  But the love I feel for him will never die and when we get to heaven he will be waiting with that same happy smile.

On May 21, my mother, sat down on the sofa and went to sleep, never to wake again.  What can you say about a mothers love, that you don’t already know?  For me it was gingerbread on cold winter days, hugs, kisses, and her unfailing love.  Every Christmas we would all bake cookies, those wonderful cut out cookies.  Boy did she have patience.  As teenagers she always allowed us to have parties, she always made sure there were snacks and drinks, moved the record player into the dining room, moved the furniture around so we had plenty of room to dance.  But the thing she did that will always stand out to me was, she would make my sister and I a new pair of bell bottom pants for the party; we never had to wear the same outfit twice.  Let me tell you she made us some wild looking pants.  We were thrilled.  As a grandmother, she never said no to babysitting, it didn’t matter if she was already babysitting for someone else she would say bring them over.  Every Christmas she continued the cookie tradition with all thirteen grandkids they would go to her house for a night of baking cut out cookies.  I made the mistake of one year offering to help her.  A migraine later, I told her she was crazy, she laughed and said it was fun.  I never made the mistake of offering to help again; instead I dropped my kids off and snuck out the door.

The last few weeks have been rough, I feel like the black clouds of doom have covered me and I can’t get out.  I find myself apologizing over and over again for being negative.  The trouble with being negative is once you let it in, it takes over.  I know that the only way to rid yourself of negative thoughts is with positive thoughts, but for two weeks I felt like I was on the losing end of this battle.  Losing my mother has reopened the loss of my dad, a hole I have avoided for years. Thinking of him, I can hear his voice saying “Everything is going to be ok.”  I want to scream “no it’s not.”  But I knew my Dad would just say “Yes it will.”  Slowly as I started thinking of my parents, the holes in my heart started to fill with love.  I could hear my Dad saying “love you girl.”

Grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends have all touched my life and left, leaving holes in my heart. They are gone, but their love is not.  As I think of Big Papa

I realize the hole in my heart does not hurt; instead the love he gave me for that brief time fills the hole with so much love, like a rose blooming in spring.  If I can still feel the love of my Great-grandfather fifty four years later, how much more will I feel the love of my parents who year after year poured out their love to me.  Those holes they left in my heart are not empty; they are filled with loving memories.  It’s a wonderful legacy to leave someone a heart filled with love.  How awesome is it that throughout their lives they were leaving deposits of love to be cashed in whenever the hole starts to appear.  Each hole is no longer dark, growing inside is a beautiful rose planted by them to grown and replace the hole in my heart.

As I go though this life, the best I can hope to do is plant tiny seeds of love along the way.  And when I am gone, those seed will blossom into a beautiful rose in your heart dimming the ache you feel.  So today, tomorrow and every day after I will do my best to fill your life with tiny seeds of love. To all my family, friends and everyone reading this, I give you this rose to fill a hole in your heart.  You are loved.

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